Dear
TG POE2 ,
I
never wanted to hurt you. Sometimes, we just can't help feeling the way we do. Sometimes, feelings change. Remember when I said it was me and you forever, and that nothing would ever change that? I wish I could still say it and mean it.
You were so hot back then, I couldn't get enough of you...you remember! I couldn't go two days without running back and begging for more! And then, slowly, things cooled down. But it was still good, way better than anyone else! I never looked twice at all those other servers parading their banners around. Things got into a rhythm, and that was fine. I was less crazy, I could go a few days without seeing you again, and the nights...oh, baby, they were great. We had such a good thing going, and we had it good for a long time. You were the cream in my coffee.
Then you wanted to play new games, and I tried to go along. You wanted to go Nuclear, and I was unsure, but I gave it my best shot. Then you got all those new maps, and Frontline, and it was better than ever. You even made me forget my time in Desert Combat. But...well, I guess I just wanted things to stay the same forever. I guess nothing is forever.
I tried to stay faithful. I downloaded all your patches, the map packs, I even CO'd a couple of scrims...but it just wasn't enough to keep the fire burning, to keep it alive. And then, you started losing all that weight...it seemed like you were barely alive, and the nights started to get quiet...and dammit, I'll admit it: it was lonely.
A few hours of fun every Friday or Saturday night isn't enough to keep a good thing going, and--let's face it--the routine was a little old. Some of those maps just made me want to go play Solitaire, if you know what I mean. Then one of the guys mentioned this new Mod. Well, turns out I had played this mod a long time back, before I met you, but now she was new, sexier. She'd gotten some...upgrades.
Well, I'm just a man, and I admit: it was tempting just to go see how she looked. So I did. And she looked good, real good. Even then, I stayed loyal to you, even though I found I still had some feelings for her. I tried to make it work. Lord knows, I tried! But I have
needs. Needs that just weren't being met anymore...And then, one night, I came to you,but...it was just a big emptiness. ...There was nothing there for me. And I knew it was never going to be the way it was. I couldn't stand it--! wasn't going to go "solo" another night!
So, I went elsewhere, to her, to AIX 2.0 on the =ISA= server. I felt so dirty just logging in...I almost used an old profile! So...that's how it was. I cheated with another server. I didn't mean it to happen, but...she just had something that I haven't had in a long time. I don't what it was, the population, the freshness, having so many choices, she was up for anything, it seemed! She gave me a Defib AND nades! It was like old times.
Even then, I was thinking of you though, and I missed having a smoke or two. And to tell you the truth, she doesn't have the finesse, the class or that naughty-but-natural thing going on--that was why I had "Fallen" for you--and I admit it, she's cheap, flashy, and it's over fast. My best night with her hasn't come close to what we had...but it happened. It felt pretty good. And...I can't promise that it won't happen again. I'll see you Friday. Probably.
Just remember: no matter what happens, we'll always have Fallen.
Axis
